Dave Hause - Devour

Devour

Release Date: 10-8-2013

Tracklist

Damascus
The Great Depression
We Could Be Kings
Autism Vaccine Blues
Same Disease
Before
Father's Son
Stockholm Syndrome
Becoming Secular
The Shine
Bricks
Benediction

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Lyrics

DAMASCUS

Welcome my friends to the show
Dance and drink if you'd like or sit back and take notes
It's a fine night to test what you know
Who you fear who you love and who you cling to for hope

There's a strange stifling smell in the air
Cigarette smoke, perfume and a tinge of despair
I guess we should all get prepared
Load your guns, take your pills and start saying your prayers

I promised that this wouldn't happen to me
I’ve got scales grown over my eyes and I can't see

If I falter as this moves along
Don't stop me to ask if there's anything wrong
Your best bet's to just move along
Throw my bones in the river and write me a song
Sing these songs, sing these songs

I promised that this wouldn't happen to me
Now I'm stockpiling bullets and vitamin c
I promised that this wouldn't happen to me
I’ve got scales grown over my eyes and I can't see

Take the scales off my eyes i’m trying to see.

 

THE GREAT DEPRESSION 

We were the Reagan kids
Our heroes didn’t work like our daddies did
They dazzled us with TV through sleepy lids
We followed hulking maniacs to prozac nation
“You can be anything, just get your education”

We were good Christian kids
Went to church on Sunday mornings like mama did
Teenage love made us feel guilty and so we hid
Under those overpasses on summer nights
We’d tear each other’s clothes off
And get into fights

Then we roared right through our twenties
Never bargained for a crash
Watched our hollow dreams get buried
Under heaps of plastic trash

Broken promises to children leave indelible impressions
Welcome to the great depression

We were our father’s sons
Playing war on weekend days with our plastic guns
Catching up with who we were through the reruns
“Eat your vitamins and say your prayers
You’ll become doctors, lawyers and millionaires”

We were misguided girls
Tried to fuck our way through such a distorted world
Confusing love with sex and plastic with pearls
“Get what you can for yourself, leave the rest behind”
It’s freedom forever ‘til your card gets declined

And we roared right through our twenties
Never bargained for a crash
Watching hollow dreams get buried
Under heaps of plastic trash
Broken promises to children leave indelible impressions
Welcome to the great depression

Did he die for your sins?
Did he leave us for dead?
If you wanted us safe why would you fuck with our heads?
The factory’s gone, the loans are foreclosed
But there’s some places left that remind me of home
Just give me one place left that reminds me of home

The lifeboat is looking pretty full
If you find some room reach out and give me a pull
The way we learned to live is fading fast
I guess we never bargained for a crash

 

WE COULD BE KINGS

So this is rejection
And it's bringing you down
He told you that he'd find work soon
Then he stopped coming around

That was the summer of sweet nights
He used to take you for rides
But it all changed in the backseat
When he came inside

Well I've seen enough to know he's old enough to know
His right from wrong
But I know how hard it is to see things through

Oh no did it rip you apart to be told we could be kings when we were damned from the start
Oh no did it rip you apart
They told us we could kings when we were damned from the start

You told him you loved him
But push had come to shove
And there are no easy answers
Mixing money and blood

He was too young to know better
And we were all unemployed
The sergeant promised a cake walk
But then he got deployed

I've seen enough, enough to know it's not about which side you're on
I know how hard it is to keep it in

We’ve been living to the left of the dial
Hoping drinks and denial can keep us here
I'm not promising you some bright side
Or trying to break your stride
But you asked me…

He was gone in an instant
They said nobody was spared
Not gonna tell you he loved you
Not gonna tell you he cared

Well I've seen enough, enough to know
Sometimes with the truth you gotta let it go
I know how hard it is to keep it in

I won't go and rip you apart
Wont tell you "you could be king"
I don't want to break your heart

I won't go and rip you apart
So open wide and just sing
‘Cuz we’re all damned from the start

 

AUTISM VACCINE BLUES

 

I’ve got texts flying in and missed calls on the phone
I've got debt collectors that won’t leave me alone
I've got a cricket for a conscious I can't shoo away
I’ve got the blood of the land all over my doorway

Oh no

That little pill made me well and now I feel everything
I hear doubting Thomas, the song that he sings
I see the screens that we worship and the holes they don't fill
I smell the sweat on her neck that's how I know I could kill

Oh no

Bless me father I’ve sinned
Have you seen the shape I’m in?
The cure has opened my eyes
But now I can’t pray away these autism vaccine blues

They said take this to relax it’ll keep you calm
They said the tumor would shrink before it killed my mom
I called to tell you I still love you “would you please hold the line?”
Like when I go to the altar and wait for a sign

The car won’t charge the phone’s out of gas
The gulf's on fire it's full of plastic trash
Is this a lump in my chest? Are those bees in my head?
I never wondered before if I’d be better off dead

Oh no

Bless me father I’ve sinned
Have you seen the shape she's in?
The vampire squid sucked me dry
And now I can’t pray away these autism vaccine blues

I’ve got text flying in, the holes won’t fill
The sweat on her neck is how I know I could kill
I called to tell you I love you but the bees are in my head
I never wondered before if I'd be better off dead

Bless me father I’ve sinned
Have you seen the shape I’m in?
The cure opened up my eyes
But now I can’t pray away these autism vaccine blues

I’ve got autism vaccine blues

 

SAME DISEASE 

I only ever want it cause it makes me sick
So give it to me now and give it to me quick
Like a Lyme diseased parasitic little tick
Latched on and burrowed in until the poison sticks

Don't bother trying to tell me it'll make me sick
I can quiet down the bees after a couple sniffs
She says "c'mon, pull it together baby get a grip"
But her hands on my hip and she’s biting my lip

I don't want it  cause it just keeps making me sick
I want it, oh I want it
I can't feel alive unless I'm feeling sick

I think she fell in love because it made her sad
You can get pretty good at feeling pretty bad
I thought this thing was tight thought it was ironclad
But I think she fell in love because it made her sad

She fed a bitter river now she's up to her throat
She set fire to the dock and to the motorboat
Now she's screaming at me to come and keep her afloat
It's a poison she designed with no antidote

She don’t love it, she don’t love it
Because it just keeps making her sad
She loves it, she loves it
She can’t feel alive unless she’s feeling sad

Now I'm wide awake and well aware
That our sick sad hearts are our cross to bear
And I'd heal that sick if I thought I could
And the sad must get old baby…

We've got the same disease
Set me free

We’ve got the same disease
Let’s get free

 

BEFORE

There's a place I'd go
Before it all broke down
Where we carried on and carried the fire
But managed not to burn the sea or the town

Before we sharpened up our teeth
Before the crash and the shame
When I could still hear your voice
When your tongue still knew my name

But you left me there
With just a memory
How do I feel your love
Adrift on this plastic plague of a sea?

Is this all of the grace you’ll allow?

I would kneel down low
Under stained glass light
To taste your body to taste your blood
Then count the minutes till we'd reunite

Before the gulf turned black
Before this town got too close to the flames
When I would wait at the door like a dog
For you to wrap your tongue ‘round my name

But you left me here
With just a memory
How do I feel your love
Adrift on this plastic plague of a sea
Is this all of the grace you allow?

I begged you before and I’m begging you now
Will the slaughter convince you to stay?
The cross wouldn't hold you but this time you won't get away

I'll leave you there
Just a memory
You will not feel my love
Adrift on this plastic sickening sea

This is all of the grace I’ll allow
I begged you before, I’m not begging you now
The slaughter convinced me to stay
But this time you won’t get away
You won’t get away

 

FATHER’S SON

I caught the fever when she went down slow
California sun had turned to indigo
Lip biting tension on the patio
Her carnivore fingers in my bag of blow

Vacation goggles Montecito sky
She wakes up and dazzles even when she's fried
She gave herself so free I barely had to try
A longing that neither of us could satisfy

That kiss goodbye… I left feeling free

Jungle life is savage when you're always stoned
I’d warm myself to her voice on the telephone
She made her way under my skin i should've known
Girls like her ain't ok just being alone

But fear is like a self fulfilling prophecy
I warned her she could always count on me to leave
That line about you can't have what you want "it's free"
And how I need to sail out on the sickening sea

I kissed her strong… felt it in my knees...
She said "well boy what if you're wrong? you could stay right here with me"

I said I am my father's son
It's a fate I can't outrun
While you lie in wait, I'll medicate then devour you just for fun
I am my father's son

Another couple visits and my grip had slipped
I get weak little knees when the script gets flipped
Lonely is an ocean I never learned to swim
Club feet won't evolve, I could use some fins

Sentimental fool with a stitched up heart
I tried to impress her with my stagnant art
My common ugly tunings and this poison pen
Maybe I could one day learn to just say when

But she said "love is about what you're down to do,
It's not a stack of verses or a new tattoo.
You’ll never wake up feeling like you've just been used
And it’s got no time for self abuse,

Let's kiss goodbye and you can go on feeling free
Boy what you call love is not for me"

She said "you are your father's son
You'll devour what you can't outrun
So don't get me wrong, I love your songs and the time we had was fun
But you are your father's son"

I am my father's son
Devouring all I can't outrun
Like a fool I ran with my little plans always out for number one
I am my father's son

 

STOCKHOLM SYNDROME

Let me up, let me up, let me up I’ve had enough
Time to go, go for self
But I don’t know nobody else

When I go start again I’ll make so many new friends
I’m still young, I’m still fun
I’m not fooling anyone

You’re begging me please
Not to pack my shit and leave
And I know you’re just calling my bluff
I'm sick of feeling sick and now I don’t want anymore
Let me up I’ve had enough

It’s the twist of the knife
Been committed my whole life
Check my phone check my mail
Check it all I’m setting sail

Left for dead left for dead
Tied me down and fucked my head
Was I wrong? Was I cruel?
Can you play if there’s no rules?

The few friends I kept tell me get up and go
Am I safer to dance with the devil I know?
I’ll have nothing to claim I’ll have nothing to show
I wanna see this whole world that I’ve missed
Blow this candle out and I’ll make my wish

I’ll just stay
I’ll just stay
It’s the price I’ve gotta pay
I’ve been blind, wrong before
Can’t quite make it out the door

 

BECOMING SECULAR

They tried to keep their arms ‘round us
They told us it was free
Their coffee and their crucifixions burned
Put scars on both our knees

That wishful drinking summer
So sweet and sinful you and me
Rolling ‘round your parents hardwood floor
Getting high out in the heat (you and me)

You were lonely and I had a song
They told you we did wrong
And we hung there on that cross in your old room

I lost faith you were trying to believe
I play the memory in my head like a symphony

I tried to keep my arms ‘round you
In the end it wasn’t me
The pharmacy receipt with shaky hands
Was all you’d really need

To scare you into praying
To put your heart in retreat
All that faith and fear came racing back
Brought you to your knees

It was lonely but I got along
Singing these ragged songs
But lately I’ve been at a loss for words

Lost faith but I’m trying to believe
I play the memories in my head like a symphony

When it’s lonely I’ll get along
Singing these ragged songs
I pray you don’t confuse my words

 

THE SHINE

It was exponential Memphis from a thousand feet
But when we landed we were black and blue
Running through the city with apocalypse eyes
Just miles of streets with nothing to do

Your warm heart had been frozen by some cold ideas
You tried to tell me but it came out wrong
I changed my strings, shaved my face and
Locked myself into the tower of song
It gets lonely in the tower of song

But I don't stutter when I sing
My melodies grow little wings
Huddled here grinding tears into red wine
Meet the darkness with the shine

We've got all our sons and daughters virgin blood on our hands
They'll be the offspring of these ugly wars
But if we kill off all our devils, will our angels die?
I found love living life like a whore

So here's some trusty chords and a melody
A pound of flesh for the brutal throng
For the heretics and walking dead and red headed girls
From the fool up in the tower of song
I'm a fool in a tower of song
Make the lonely fool smile, sing along

Cause we don't stutter when we sing
Our melodies grow little wings
Huddled here grinding tears into red wine
Meet the darkness with the shine

If you've got the shine, shine on

 

BRICKS

Now I'm missing you
I miss that town I miss your name
I don't speak it anymore
Since you took my picture from its frame

I'm up later each night trying to write my way out of this tomb
Seems these sedatives don't work as well in these gloomy rented rooms
Where the air conditioner's set on choke and the TV loops bad news
I'm moving on

So maybe Mexico
San Francisco would be fine
Somewhere to dry out
Clean up and pass a little time
I'll put some money down
Maybe a place right on the bay
I’ll build a brand new foundation from the bricks you threw my way

That January moon
Indian summer's warm wind came
Spring fever brought along
Some hope to quell the sin and shame

But it wasn't long before
That winter chill began to haunt
We tried to warm our bones
In that freezing house I used to want

And those highs and lows when they come and go just slide to the extreme
And I couldn't sleep there long enough to have a decent dream
Where the heater's set on stifle and the nightmares made me scream
I'm moving on

 

BENEDICTION

Oh my friends time to go did you enjoy the show?
Did you dance? Did you drink? Did you take any notes?
Are you pinned wide awake acutely aware
That your sick saddened heart is the cross that you bear?

Did the promise they broke come and rip you apart?
Open wide and just sing, cause we're damned from the start

So are you in?  Are you in?

Are you surely devouring what you can't outrun?
Can you change anything? Are you your father's son?
Did their cross that you bear put scars on your knees?
Have you lost faith? Are you trying to believe?

This is all of the grace here that we've been allowed
I begged you before but I'm not begging you now

So are you in?  Are you in?

Do your eyes twitch from staring at the screen on your phone?
Just desperate to hear that you're not alone
I know you're scared to be just one more notch on my belt
But if you kissed me the gold in my teeth might just melt
I've been huddled up here grinding tears into wine
Are you with me to help meet that dark with your shine?

Are you in?  Are you in?

It's love my friend in the end that can save us tonight
So are you in?